Born in 1991 in Belgrade, Serbia.
Lives and works in Belgrade.
The Surplus, 2014
Video, 8′ 40”
My video The Surplus was made during the final year of my master’s studies. It didn’t come into being because I needed to communicate anything or create a metaphor for the expression of an idea. It was the result of my real need to lick the table. This had been preceded by my need to lick the wall (a previous work) when drive to show this monstrosity had come out of me. Although I had some artistic goals – to produce a perfect drawing, or (better said) sculpture, by confirming already existing shapes – the emotional causes for the creation of these works seemed more important. Both of them were externalizations of a burning discontent of which I wasn’t fully aware.
When I recall the act of licking the surface of the table, it evokes the masochistic need I felt to be controlled and subjugated. Performing this deviant act made the taste of unreason sweeter. At this time, layers of misunderstanding and feelings of being trapped were not to be resisted but to be made peace with. More than that: it was something that I liked, even loved. I desired to indulge everything that I felt as abuse and repression in order to be able to rest from all its conflicts and struggles.
In its coldness and immovability the table represented the ‘rough’ male world, while I was everything ‘female’ – submissive, adaptable and soft. I knew I had something to offer but there was no one to receive it and I found that I became shapeless from too much adaptation and, in the end, by relieving all tensions, appeared as if I was totally out of control. When I decided to follow my idea to the end by showing this video I unburdened myself of all the hidden rage and suffering caused by insensitivity and lack of interest – the walls I always hit against: injustice towards everything that is female. I am glad that my work ‘bites’ back and, to be honest, it makes me happy. Nevertheless, my relation with it has changed over time. Now I consider it to be a part of me that needs to be integrated.
I think that the problems we have with the world are the same as those we have with ourselves. It is just as well that the world and the individual can be only changed together. What I love in art is that it provides a perfect tool for such an endeavour.